I've never considered myself to be sheltered or naive about life. I'm a realist. Down to earth, blunt, honest, I see things the way that they are, and I'll give you a god damn reality check when you need one. That's me, charming I know. Then 2013 came along and I feel like someone took my life and just flipped it. Turned it upside down and shook it, letting everything that's been stable, happy, and drama free in the past 6 - 8.5 years, to fall away. I really can't help but be a little emotional and not my mean old self lately.
So far 2013 will be coined the year of break ups for me. My boyfriend dumped me, and recently my work place dumped me. 8 months ago I thought I had the next 5 years of my life planned out and now I'm single and out of a job. I don't really know what to say but that things happen, and I know a lot of other people have been through worst. I'm trying my best to think things through logically, and I try my best to keep a positive outlook. My problems are small potatoes compared to other things happening in the world today.
One thing that I've realized, going through this whole process, is that there's a lot of people in my life that really care and love me. A lot more than I thought. You kind of expect a level of support from family and friends but receiving emails, texts, and phone calls from coworkers, and other acquaintances was really a shock for me. It made me feel sad because I realize how much I took for granted my every day interactions with people. Sometime in my life I developed this habit of limiting my socializing because I didn't want to bother people, and I didn't want to waste their time. Aside from work related things, I never really felt like what I had to say about the day, the weather, my life, was really important to anyone. I didn't realize that my limited interactions with people would leave any kind of impression on them... Or secretly I hoped it didn't. I didn't want to burden people with my problems, so I hardly ever shared details about my life regardless if it was happy or sad. However, I realize now that no matter how much you try not to make an impact on other people, ultimately you do. I wish I shared more of what was happening in my life than I did homemade cookies and cupcakes.
What's more interesting is that sometimes you meet people in life that make a huge impact on yourself. I didn't realize it then how much certain people made me smile and brightened up my day. How they made a very hard time in my life a little easier. Sometimes life just brings the right people into your life when you need them most. I am very grateful and very happy.
To my family, friends, blogger friends, (ex)coworkers, and acquaintances,
Thank you for your support and your kind words. I am doing fine and I know that everything is going to work out for me, not because 'things happen for a reason', but because I choose to live a successful, passionate, and happy life.
Don't forget to thank those
Who bring the sugar to sweeten your lemonade.